What a month…

So this last month has been a tough one.  Our foster girls who have been with us since last January moved this last friday to an adoptive home.  I’ve had lots of guilt because of us not being able to adopt them but it just wasn’t what would have been best for us or the boys.  We idealy want to adopt one more but I also want one more that I’ve had since they were a baby.  J (the 5 yr old) also possibly/probably had Fetal Alcholol Syndrome and with our Seth alreading being high needs we just didn’t think we could parent them both the way they deserved to be forever.  Okay, enough justifing things to myself…….

Anyway, I became the monster, evil foster mom in the last months as they had visits with the new parents who bought them everything under the sun then they came home to the poor house with all these kids and the nerve! Rules!  Add in their terrible social workers who perpetuated me being the bad guy and I wasn’t real popular anymore.  I was still so sad to have them go, I missed the fun stuff we did before when everyone just left us alone and let me do all the work.  I was also very relieved to just have this over and move on with kids who I felt I might be making a difference for. 

 So that’s what’s been happening around here.  I’ve been deep cleaning the house to prepare for the next new people hopefully coming soon.  Logan came home sick today from school but hopefully we will be all better for tomorrow.  I really don’t want him to miss his Halloween party at school.  That would stink.